Health Improvements

I went to see my doctor in December and I went back last week for a general check-up before my medical insurance ended at the end of February.  In December, she was very concerned about several aspects of my physical and emotional health.  My cholesterol was too high, particularly the triglycerides (fats) and I was, in her opinion, so deeply depressed that I should be taking antidepressants.  She understood that my depressed state was circumstantial, not chronic, but still she was quite concerned for me.  I did not want to take antidepressants, so I talked with my counselor, my midwife, my mom and my husband to get their opinions.  They each encouraged me to continue on my healing journey without taking the meds because they could tell I was making strides on my own.

I have been doing many things to work toward healing, both inside and out.  I started back up with my favorite form of exercise two months ago and my body is getting stronger and stronger every day.  I started this blog, and no matter how many of you do or don't read my thoughts here, it helps me immensely to write.  I have been seeing a counselor every week, and she is helping me to feel validated in my pain while nudging me toward happiness again.  She lets me vent and helps me strategize ways to solve the many issues that come up at home living with G's parents.  She boosts my confidence and helps me stay sane in this crazy time.  I've been hiking more and crying myself to sleep less.

When I went back to the doctor last week, I was very pleased to learn that my cholesterol has improved (still high, but better than before).  When she assessed my depression, she was pleased to inform me that I have improved  from a score of 19 in December to 8 now (10 or more is cause for concern).  That was incredibly encouraging to me, especially because Ghaith and I both get frustrated sometimes with how long it is taking me to heal emotionally and how I am so up and down.  It's good to get some concrete evidence of improvements from a professional who knows what to look for.

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